The clock is down to less than ten days until I will be leaving the University of Oklahoma for the final time and returning to Iowa to continue on in life. Looking back to when I made this decision, I was in a world of hurt and desperately wanted things to change, so I changed them. And now as I will be leaving for good, I think about the things I'll be missing around here...
I'm going to miss this beautiful campus. I'm going to miss the sometimes crazy but mostly wonderful weather that is Oklahoma. I'm going to miss my few friends that I've made here at OU, some so recently as this week! I'm going to miss the wonderful church that I've been attending recently.
But as I look at this list I have made, I see sentimentaly aspects of what I'll be missing. I will always have the opportunity to visit Oklahoma again later on in life to fulfill some of the things I'll be missing when I leave.
As of now, it is time to look to the future. I did give Oklahoma a good run and though I like many things about it, it's just not for me. The longer I think about it, to more I'm really expecting myself to love and flourish at the University of Iowa. I DO think I will enjoy nursing. I DO want to stop being so dull in life like I have been here at OU. I'm ready to move on from the hurting I've experienced down here and be closer to home and in a place that I actually enjoy being.
Meanwhile, I've had some very good luck and fortune in my final two weeks down here! I'm very excited to have the opportunity to see Craig Groeschel give not one but TWO live sermons tomorrow. I'm also excited that for the rest of the days this week, I only have one class each day; two of those days not having the class until 2:30 in the afternoon! I've only got two finals to prepare for and then a paper to write for political science, so I feel that I will be able to finish out this semester strong.
As far as preparations for transferring to Iowa goes, everything is applied for and filled out. Transcripts are sent. Orientation date is set. EMT job with Johnson County EMS has been applied for. And I'm actually excited to make this step in my life. I'm happy to be going to Iowa and doing something that I love to do!
Oh... and there's that letter I'm needing to write to my parents that I've been putting off.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Venting where I shouldn't be.
A good friend of mine just blogged yesterday about her misuse of her blog for venting instead of healing. As I get back to my room today, all I want is to vent this dumb thing that just happened to me, even though I realize I really shouldn't. So instead, I'm going to rant about the qualities regarding this situation and what I don't like about them.
You may always get asked what your biggest pet peeves are and sometimes, if you're me, you never remember them! I've started a list on my phone to remember the bigger ones and it's coming along well. So, if I may, here's my list with descriptions:
1. Slow walkers. If I've learned anything from college it's that slow walkers drive me nuts!! Everytime I walk, I am going somewhere. I walk with purpose. I have a reason behind my walking. And I also walk kind of fast which makes the averaged speed walkers seem even slower to me.
2. Passive-aggressiveness. I'm a person that wants to know exactly what's wrong with someone or a situation. Don't beat around the bush with stuff. Yeah, sometimes I might get upset about what's going on but I'd be more upset if you are passive-aggressive and aren't communicating.
3. "The Silent Treatment." Somewhat going along with number 2, the silent treaetment completely ticks me off. "How are you today?" "Fine." "Well is everything ok?" *hmmm* I HATE THE SILENT TREATMENT!!! Tell me how it is!! Do you hate me?! TELL ME!!! *calm down boy....*
The last two points are things I had to deal with today and I'm not happy about it. Whatever though... you gain some you lose some. I'm leaving anyway so what does it matter?
T-5 days, 20 hours, 19 minutes, and 23 seconds until I leave to come home. I'm getting more and more excited and more and more anxious. Home really is where the heart is.. Watch out Mahaska County 'cause AJW's coming to town!!
Peace all!
Monday, November 17, 2014
What a day!
Well what a day/few days it has been here in Norman!
First off, I had another awesome church service at LifeChurch in Moore! The worship there just makes me feel like I'm re-giving my life to Christ ever time I go. And then the snow started falling. It took many people by surprise because we got a lot more snow then they had originally forcast for the Norman and OKC area. Car accidents were happening left and right, people were getting injuried, and also a plethera of medical calls. All of it just made me more and more anxious to be back on the ambulance coming next week. Speaking of which, I got approval to help out over Thanksgiving and Christmas so that's a big plus!
I had some good conversation with friends last night and really had an enjoyable night! Then we got the text/call/email saying classes for the Norman campus were cancelled today which I wasn't going to complain about, but was pretty much unnecessary. A three day weekend is usually nice but right now I just want to go to class, which makes the days go by faster, which will make next Tuesday come even faster!! I suppose I just enjoy the rest of the days, do my school work, and make the most of it... (I sound like a self-help book!)
I just can't wait to be home with my friends and forget about the time and where I have to be in exactley 36 minutes. I can't wait to (hopefully) help out on ambulance. I can't wait to relax! I can't wait to drive! Yes that sounds weird but I just want to have an 9 hour period to myself where I can think, listen to music, and just destress.
T-7days, 21 hours, 34 minutes, and 16 seconds until I embark on my journey back to the big 'ol metropolis of New Sharon, IA!!!
Happy days peeps! :)
First off, I had another awesome church service at LifeChurch in Moore! The worship there just makes me feel like I'm re-giving my life to Christ ever time I go. And then the snow started falling. It took many people by surprise because we got a lot more snow then they had originally forcast for the Norman and OKC area. Car accidents were happening left and right, people were getting injuried, and also a plethera of medical calls. All of it just made me more and more anxious to be back on the ambulance coming next week. Speaking of which, I got approval to help out over Thanksgiving and Christmas so that's a big plus!
I had some good conversation with friends last night and really had an enjoyable night! Then we got the text/call/email saying classes for the Norman campus were cancelled today which I wasn't going to complain about, but was pretty much unnecessary. A three day weekend is usually nice but right now I just want to go to class, which makes the days go by faster, which will make next Tuesday come even faster!! I suppose I just enjoy the rest of the days, do my school work, and make the most of it... (I sound like a self-help book!)
I just can't wait to be home with my friends and forget about the time and where I have to be in exactley 36 minutes. I can't wait to (hopefully) help out on ambulance. I can't wait to relax! I can't wait to drive! Yes that sounds weird but I just want to have an 9 hour period to myself where I can think, listen to music, and just destress.
T-7days, 21 hours, 34 minutes, and 16 seconds until I embark on my journey back to the big 'ol metropolis of New Sharon, IA!!!
Happy days peeps! :)
Friday, November 7, 2014
Feelin' alright
It keeps getting longer and longer between the times that I blog. I guess it means I'm keeping busy which means the time will go faster between now and going home!
UPDATE: I've been doing pretty good lately. Took a chemistry exam last night and feel alright about it. I have a football game to work this weekend and I'm planning to go to this really cool church in Moore on Sunday. I was talking to a friend who has gone to this church and she said it's this church that started the app YouVersion, so that's pretty awesome! I've got a math exam next week which I'm feeling pretty good about also. And then there's only another full week before I get to go home for Thanksgiving!! I'm super excited to just be home for a period of time in which I can relax and talk with friends rather than being super busy from the moment I'm home to the moment I leave again. I just can't wait for meaningful conversation and maybe some ambulance calls along the way! :)
So since my time here in Oklahoma is winding down and it's only a very short time until I'll be moving to the University of Iowa, I decided it was time to tell people who are close to me about this change. Rachael is sad but understands, the other girl from Iowa that I know, Holly, was saddened but said she completely understands as well, my friend Eric said he understood and even said he was contemplating moving back to Texas because he doesn't really feel right here either. That was a nice conversation to have.
Then came this girl named Kelsey. I don't really know her that well but yesterday morning we decided to go to breakfast with the other PCS (scholars group) people and then chatted for a little while. She wanted to walk with me to my class and then asked about studying later which was a little strange. Anyway, I told her about my leaving and I got a reaction that I was not expecting! She first looked really sad and walked away. When I went to say something to her later she said, "People always do this to me. They come into my life and then leave with even caring. I can't be friends with you or talk to you anymore." .........*silence*.......... What in the hell just happened? I didn't think we had become good friends in that time. The people I cared about more were very supportive in my decision but she was completely pissed off by it. To each its own though.
One last thing I want to talk about was another street preacher that came to campus a few days ago. I saw this guys and his wife setting up their stuff when I was walking to class and wanted to hear what they were saying so after class I stood there and listened for a while. This guy was calling everyone on the campus marijuana smokers, porn addicts, and even said that a group of guys standing next to each other were homosexual because they were simply standing next to each other. They claimed that they have absolutely no sin in their lives as of however many years ago and are "perfect". After listening for a while, I decided to go talk to the wife of this guy who was standing near him holding a Bible. I ended up having a very interesting, hour long conversation with her, all while a group of students were behind me yelling and screaming at her husband the entire time. Her reasoning behind her beliefs just didn't really add up to me. She was telling me that the bible gives them the right to judge righteous acts and then later that the Jesus wasn't the only perfect person in the bible, that Job was also considered perfect. Nothing she was saying really made any sense to me but it was a really good conversation otherwise. When I had to leave I thanked her for standing there and talking with me and she said, "God Bless you" and then I was on my way. I feel that her intentions were pure but her way of going about expressing those intentions were very wrong.
Wow this is a long post! Have a good day everyone and God Bless!
UPDATE: I've been doing pretty good lately. Took a chemistry exam last night and feel alright about it. I have a football game to work this weekend and I'm planning to go to this really cool church in Moore on Sunday. I was talking to a friend who has gone to this church and she said it's this church that started the app YouVersion, so that's pretty awesome! I've got a math exam next week which I'm feeling pretty good about also. And then there's only another full week before I get to go home for Thanksgiving!! I'm super excited to just be home for a period of time in which I can relax and talk with friends rather than being super busy from the moment I'm home to the moment I leave again. I just can't wait for meaningful conversation and maybe some ambulance calls along the way! :)
So since my time here in Oklahoma is winding down and it's only a very short time until I'll be moving to the University of Iowa, I decided it was time to tell people who are close to me about this change. Rachael is sad but understands, the other girl from Iowa that I know, Holly, was saddened but said she completely understands as well, my friend Eric said he understood and even said he was contemplating moving back to Texas because he doesn't really feel right here either. That was a nice conversation to have.
Then came this girl named Kelsey. I don't really know her that well but yesterday morning we decided to go to breakfast with the other PCS (scholars group) people and then chatted for a little while. She wanted to walk with me to my class and then asked about studying later which was a little strange. Anyway, I told her about my leaving and I got a reaction that I was not expecting! She first looked really sad and walked away. When I went to say something to her later she said, "People always do this to me. They come into my life and then leave with even caring. I can't be friends with you or talk to you anymore." .........*silence*.......... What in the hell just happened? I didn't think we had become good friends in that time. The people I cared about more were very supportive in my decision but she was completely pissed off by it. To each its own though.
One last thing I want to talk about was another street preacher that came to campus a few days ago. I saw this guys and his wife setting up their stuff when I was walking to class and wanted to hear what they were saying so after class I stood there and listened for a while. This guy was calling everyone on the campus marijuana smokers, porn addicts, and even said that a group of guys standing next to each other were homosexual because they were simply standing next to each other. They claimed that they have absolutely no sin in their lives as of however many years ago and are "perfect". After listening for a while, I decided to go talk to the wife of this guy who was standing near him holding a Bible. I ended up having a very interesting, hour long conversation with her, all while a group of students were behind me yelling and screaming at her husband the entire time. Her reasoning behind her beliefs just didn't really add up to me. She was telling me that the bible gives them the right to judge righteous acts and then later that the Jesus wasn't the only perfect person in the bible, that Job was also considered perfect. Nothing she was saying really made any sense to me but it was a really good conversation otherwise. When I had to leave I thanked her for standing there and talking with me and she said, "God Bless you" and then I was on my way. I feel that her intentions were pure but her way of going about expressing those intentions were very wrong.
Wow this is a long post! Have a good day everyone and God Bless!
Monday, October 27, 2014
Great Advice
Things have been so busy lately that I've kind of been slacking on reading my devotional. I looked back to Friday the 24th and found a very interesting reading. It was as follows:
"In any major decision we make concerning college, marriage, career, children, etc., it is not a sign of weakness to ask for advice. Instead, it is foolish not to ask for it. Find good advisers before making any big decision. They can help you expand your alternative and evaluate your choices."
What a great thing to keep in mind! And of course that reading was on the day that I was coming home and hoping to meet with a great "adviser" to talk about my future plans with. I was saddened that this wouldn't happen but, as God has it, that "adviser" was at the football game that I went to and, through talking with him, I ended up becoming happy with the choice I am making for the future.
God has such a great was of making things happen in unusual ways. AND I LOVE IT!!
"In any major decision we make concerning college, marriage, career, children, etc., it is not a sign of weakness to ask for advice. Instead, it is foolish not to ask for it. Find good advisers before making any big decision. They can help you expand your alternative and evaluate your choices."
What a great thing to keep in mind! And of course that reading was on the day that I was coming home and hoping to meet with a great "adviser" to talk about my future plans with. I was saddened that this wouldn't happen but, as God has it, that "adviser" was at the football game that I went to and, through talking with him, I ended up becoming happy with the choice I am making for the future.
God has such a great was of making things happen in unusual ways. AND I LOVE IT!!
Monday, October 20, 2014
Annoyed...Not Angry...Annoyed.
You know the first few weeks that I was at this campus, I thought that my roommate was a pretty cool dude and we would get along great. I guess they're right that after two months, problems start to surface.
I started to get mad at myself a few weeks ago because I didn't seem to have the "cojones" to tell my roommate that I didn't want him borrowing my car. I was originally okay with it when he had to go somewhere to get a new phone and whatnot because I can understand that, as my phone was acting up at the time as well. Then one night he asked to take my car down the road to 7-11 to get cigarettes with a friend whom I had met and decided was a pretty cool guy. I agreed he could do so but I realized that it took him a long time to come back to the room. And wouldn't you know it, the truth slipped up a few nights later while eating supper with a few of his friends who I had not met before. They were talking along and one mentioned something funny that had happened, "that one night in the car." I laughed and then looked at Jack and he gave me a very disconcerning look, and then started to laugh after I didn't show any emotion about it; probably assuming that I didn't catch the mistake his friend made. But it did, yet didn't do anything about it because I thought maybe it was a one time thing.
Then it comes to this past Saturday night/Sunday morning when Jack comes back to the room totally and completely smashed. Like that, "I can't believe you're not dead" stage of drinking. Not even kidding... I paused many times through the night after he stopped making noise to make sure that he was still breathing. He threw up at least 9 or 10 times within a few hours window. I knew there was no way I was doing anything to clean up after him because it's time for him to be a big boy. Now, he had thrown a pillow on the ground and laid on the floor for a while in the midst of the vomiting. Tonight, Monday night, that pillow is STILL ON THE FLOOR!!! Along with random clothes thrown everywhere and his belt that he had on THAT NIGHT!! I'm not trying to be an a&#hole but when I don't have room to walk and have to step over your s*$t, that's pushing my limits!
Fast-forward to last night and I really start to get annoyed. I was working on some homework at my desk and Jack had just got into bed. He was in bed for like 5 minutes and then he starts to get up and put clothes on. I had a feeling about what was going to come next but I really hoped he wouldn't ask..... "Austin. Can I borrow your car for just a minute?" GRRRRRRRRRR!!! ".....Yes....." *My voice in my head* "YOU DUMBASS!!!!!!!" Why did I let him borrow my car at MIDNIGHT! I decided to look at the time he left and then see when he came back. Now I was asleep when he came back but I woke up at 1:42 AM and looked over and he wasn't in bed. That means that for at least an hour and forty-two minutes, he had the keys to my car and opportunity to take and do whatever he wanted to with it. AM I AN IDIOT OR WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
And now for the instigation factor that is leading me to blog right now... Jack had left the room a while ago and I decided to watch a movie in my bed. I'm sitting here just chillin' and Jack comes back with two of his friends. I was somewhat annoyed but I just figured they'd be back for a few minutes and then leave again. No. Jack pulls a Wii out of his bag and hooks it up to MY TV!! Now listen all blog readers.. I'm really not saying this stuff out of spite or because it's mine and I don't feel like sharing, though it seems to be coming out like that. My room is a place where I can go to isolate myself from everything and either watch a movie or do my homework. I understand that the room is only half mine and half his, but I'm not bringing people over to the room any being loud and annoying. I want to respect my roommate's ability to be comfortable in his room and hangout but I think this is pushing the limits.
So the moral of this blog is nothing but absolute negativity and I don't even feel good about blogging about this stupid topic but it's making me feel better so; whatever.
Goodbye.
*UPDATE 12:19AM*
My roommate and his two friends are STILL here and wanted to go to Wal-Mart for some stupid reason and wanted to take my car to which I said no. After some persuasion by him..... I still said no. He kept offering to put gas in my car for me but I said no again. Then they wanted to go to 7-11 which isn't that far away and they were like, "How are we going to get there?" Uhhh. YOUR TWO FEET!! God didn't just laugh and decide to give you two long appendages growning out of your torso for no reason! (Don't take that the wrong way peoples!) Walk your happy a*$ there if you're so needy to go somewhere! ANNOYED!!
I started to get mad at myself a few weeks ago because I didn't seem to have the "cojones" to tell my roommate that I didn't want him borrowing my car. I was originally okay with it when he had to go somewhere to get a new phone and whatnot because I can understand that, as my phone was acting up at the time as well. Then one night he asked to take my car down the road to 7-11 to get cigarettes with a friend whom I had met and decided was a pretty cool guy. I agreed he could do so but I realized that it took him a long time to come back to the room. And wouldn't you know it, the truth slipped up a few nights later while eating supper with a few of his friends who I had not met before. They were talking along and one mentioned something funny that had happened, "that one night in the car." I laughed and then looked at Jack and he gave me a very disconcerning look, and then started to laugh after I didn't show any emotion about it; probably assuming that I didn't catch the mistake his friend made. But it did, yet didn't do anything about it because I thought maybe it was a one time thing.
Then it comes to this past Saturday night/Sunday morning when Jack comes back to the room totally and completely smashed. Like that, "I can't believe you're not dead" stage of drinking. Not even kidding... I paused many times through the night after he stopped making noise to make sure that he was still breathing. He threw up at least 9 or 10 times within a few hours window. I knew there was no way I was doing anything to clean up after him because it's time for him to be a big boy. Now, he had thrown a pillow on the ground and laid on the floor for a while in the midst of the vomiting. Tonight, Monday night, that pillow is STILL ON THE FLOOR!!! Along with random clothes thrown everywhere and his belt that he had on THAT NIGHT!! I'm not trying to be an a&#hole but when I don't have room to walk and have to step over your s*$t, that's pushing my limits!
Fast-forward to last night and I really start to get annoyed. I was working on some homework at my desk and Jack had just got into bed. He was in bed for like 5 minutes and then he starts to get up and put clothes on. I had a feeling about what was going to come next but I really hoped he wouldn't ask..... "Austin. Can I borrow your car for just a minute?" GRRRRRRRRRR!!! ".....Yes....." *My voice in my head* "YOU DUMBASS!!!!!!!" Why did I let him borrow my car at MIDNIGHT! I decided to look at the time he left and then see when he came back. Now I was asleep when he came back but I woke up at 1:42 AM and looked over and he wasn't in bed. That means that for at least an hour and forty-two minutes, he had the keys to my car and opportunity to take and do whatever he wanted to with it. AM I AN IDIOT OR WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
And now for the instigation factor that is leading me to blog right now... Jack had left the room a while ago and I decided to watch a movie in my bed. I'm sitting here just chillin' and Jack comes back with two of his friends. I was somewhat annoyed but I just figured they'd be back for a few minutes and then leave again. No. Jack pulls a Wii out of his bag and hooks it up to MY TV!! Now listen all blog readers.. I'm really not saying this stuff out of spite or because it's mine and I don't feel like sharing, though it seems to be coming out like that. My room is a place where I can go to isolate myself from everything and either watch a movie or do my homework. I understand that the room is only half mine and half his, but I'm not bringing people over to the room any being loud and annoying. I want to respect my roommate's ability to be comfortable in his room and hangout but I think this is pushing the limits.
So the moral of this blog is nothing but absolute negativity and I don't even feel good about blogging about this stupid topic but it's making me feel better so; whatever.
Goodbye.
*UPDATE 12:19AM*
My roommate and his two friends are STILL here and wanted to go to Wal-Mart for some stupid reason and wanted to take my car to which I said no. After some persuasion by him..... I still said no. He kept offering to put gas in my car for me but I said no again. Then they wanted to go to 7-11 which isn't that far away and they were like, "How are we going to get there?" Uhhh. YOUR TWO FEET!! God didn't just laugh and decide to give you two long appendages growning out of your torso for no reason! (Don't take that the wrong way peoples!) Walk your happy a*$ there if you're so needy to go somewhere! ANNOYED!!
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Great Day!
Today was just a fantastic day!!! I woke up this morning feeling completely refreshed and like I was a new person after feeling very bitter and somewhat angry over the last few days.
I went to my only class of the day and after it was over as I walked out into the bright sunshine, an overwhelming warmth filled my body. Probably the beautiful weather but I still found it neat! :)
The weather here was completely amazing today. A high of 87 degrees with hardly a cloud in the sky and a nice wind to go along. I was in my room for a while with my roommate and I just couldn't stand sitting inside any longer so I went to a place on campus where they have this patio thingy that is slightly shaded and has some tables you can sit at. I studied for my math test that took place this evening and just found it to be so peaceful and nice.
As day turned into night, I began to prepare for my math test. I really wasn't worried because I had studied a lot and felt very good going into it. I just walked back from the test a few minutes ago and I can honestly say I've never felt better about a test. Even with all of my tests I took in high school, this one I'm so confident about! I would even go as far as to say that I aced it! I'm so happy right now!! :) (If you see a depressed blog early next week, that means I probably got a B on the test.)
Exactly a week from right now I'll probably be about 35,000 feet over Kansas or Missouri on my way home in a metal tube flying through thin air at 500 miles per hour, where I'm HOPING nobody secretly has ebola!!! This ebola talk is EVERYWHERE! Rightfully so. This thing could easily wipe the face off of this planet if people aren't more careful.
Anywho... Just thought I'd update everyone on the fantastic day I had here. Sadly it's one of the few but I'm so looking forward to the many happy days I'll be having after December. I can't wait!!
I went to my only class of the day and after it was over as I walked out into the bright sunshine, an overwhelming warmth filled my body. Probably the beautiful weather but I still found it neat! :)
The weather here was completely amazing today. A high of 87 degrees with hardly a cloud in the sky and a nice wind to go along. I was in my room for a while with my roommate and I just couldn't stand sitting inside any longer so I went to a place on campus where they have this patio thingy that is slightly shaded and has some tables you can sit at. I studied for my math test that took place this evening and just found it to be so peaceful and nice.
As day turned into night, I began to prepare for my math test. I really wasn't worried because I had studied a lot and felt very good going into it. I just walked back from the test a few minutes ago and I can honestly say I've never felt better about a test. Even with all of my tests I took in high school, this one I'm so confident about! I would even go as far as to say that I aced it! I'm so happy right now!! :) (If you see a depressed blog early next week, that means I probably got a B on the test.)
Exactly a week from right now I'll probably be about 35,000 feet over Kansas or Missouri on my way home in a metal tube flying through thin air at 500 miles per hour, where I'm HOPING nobody secretly has ebola!!! This ebola talk is EVERYWHERE! Rightfully so. This thing could easily wipe the face off of this planet if people aren't more careful.
Anywho... Just thought I'd update everyone on the fantastic day I had here. Sadly it's one of the few but I'm so looking forward to the many happy days I'll be having after December. I can't wait!!
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