I think I might be "Jim-isming" here so I'll get down to the meat and potatoes of my post. I've got some really huge decisions coming my way right now. My mom always has told me that you should never have to know exactly what you want to do in life while you're still in high school. She's always reassured me that I may get to Oklahoma and hate the Meteorology field. I would tell her by saying that, she is setting me up for failure. Unfortunately, I now understand what she is talking about. Lately, when people ask me what the weather is going to be like, I've been thinking to myself, "Who cares!? Just go online and find out for yourself!". . . . What does that say about me?? On the contrary, if someone asked me what the difference between the medical terms tachycardia and bradycardia was, I feel I would by happy to answer them. I feel like I'm drowning in what to do. As I am currently sitting here writing this, I am alone in my pitch black living room, holding back tears because of all the pressure that's building. I never really show too much emotion which is why there is nobody around me right now.
I've never been one for taking medication but I've lately been having constant headaches that just never go away. Whether from lack of sleep or endless stress, I feel like nothing I can do will help me. Don't worry people. I'm not suicidal or want to do drugs, I just think I need to get away from everything for a while.
I'm really at a loss for words right now because nothing I think I am going to say will make sense. I can't really think straight at this point so I believe I'll just be going to bed. Night...
Peace.
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