Rough Road Ahead

This past week as just been all over the place. One day I hated the world and today I was really happy to be around the people I love. Isn't it crazy how life has its way of balancing things in our lives out? Today turned out to be not too bad.  I did have to work an eight hour shift and miss seeing some of my close family/friends but I guess there's costs and benefits to everything.  

I think I might be "Jim-isming" here so I'll get down to the meat and potatoes of my post.  I've got some really huge decisions coming my way right now.  My mom always has told me that you should never have to know exactly what you want to do in life while you're still in high school.  She's always reassured me that I may get to Oklahoma and hate the Meteorology field.  I would tell her by saying that, she is setting me up for failure.  Unfortunately, I now understand what she is talking about.  Lately, when people ask me what the weather is going to be like, I've been thinking to myself, "Who cares!? Just go online and find out for yourself!". . . . What does that say about me??  On the contrary, if someone asked me what the difference between the medical terms tachycardia and bradycardia was, I feel I would by happy to answer them.  I feel like I'm drowning in what to do.  As I am currently sitting here writing this, I am alone in my pitch black living room, holding back tears because of all the pressure that's building.  I never really show too much emotion which is why there is nobody around me right now.  

I've never been one for taking medication but I've lately been having constant headaches that just never go away.  Whether from lack of sleep or endless stress, I feel like nothing I can do will help me.  Don't worry people.  I'm not suicidal or want to do drugs, I just think I need to get away from everything for a while.  

I'm really at a loss for words right now because nothing I think I am going to say will make sense.  I can't really think straight at this point so I believe I'll just be going to bed.  Night...

Peace.  

Here We Go!

Like the title says, here we go!!  I don't know if I really like writing very much but I think this will help me with all the crazy things going on these days.

This week has been somewhat of a weird week.  School on Monday was cancelled, yesterday I learned some life lessons in a crazy fashion, and today I had the mood where I just wanted to kill everyone I talked to!

As for yesterday, I learned two important things: 1. Don't take life for granted because you aren't guaranteed it, 2. I think I have superpowers.  I bet you're probably laughing at the fact I just said that.  Let me explain. . . .  A few months ago I was wanting to ride with the emergency manager to an accident scene to get a feel for emergency medicine and what working in that field would be like.  Lone behold, that actually happened!  Then recently, I was wanting to come up on an accident scene and be able to help the patient until the ambulance got there.  And again, yesterday that happened.  Superpowers?  I think SO!! (By the way, I've really been wanting to call 911 at some point before I move to Oklahoma so if that happens, I'm saying, "I told you so!!" in a really snobby voice.)

As for my other life lesson, I stay with the accident scene I came upon.  This gal rolled her car because the corner was slick and she had her cruise control on.  Could our lives really be that delicate?  This lady was just going about a normal day and because of her decision to flick one switch in her car, she almost lost her life.  Everyone needs to remember that we aren't guaranteed our lives and should live like today is our last.  Love your friends, family, and make an impact on someone.  Later on in life, they could be the ones impacting you.

Well, I'm going to be on my way to my EMT class.  I just never ends!  Have a good night blog readers!! (Val, Tyler, and Ariel) [Unless you're someone else and are deciding to read this.  In that case, THANKS!!]

Peace!